When I was 21, I had no idea if I was ever going to get married or when I was going to have kids. I was a senior in college, finishing my last semesters for my bachelor degree and just started discovering alcohol. I graduated at 22 with my degree and started working full time right away. I realized quickly that working full time is so overrated. We go to school striving to get good grades and work hard for a degree and now I'm at an office working 9-5 and living for the weekend.

After working for a few years and enjoying single life as a young working professional, I realized I never really need to get married. I can just have a new boyfriend every couple of years. I also didn't want kids anymore. Flash forward to about 5 years and I met the love of my life at 27 years old. We got married when I was 29 and I quit my 9-5 full time work that I was slaving for the last 6 years and moved with my husband to a new state. We started a new life together in a state I've never been to before. He was the pilot and I was and still am tagging along for the nice ride. I needed a break from a stressful work life and he felt that I deserved that too. He got a good job offer so that is why we went for a new adventure after I got married. 

Well, after a couple of months of not working, I was ready to seriously find a job. I quickly discovered that to find a marketing job that will pay me the amount that I was paid for when I left my last job was going to be hard. I have relevant experience, a bachelor degree and I'm still relatively young but the market is just not here in this small town that we live in. 

Anyway, while I was looking for a new job, I was enjoying peace and discovering new hobbies. I ran 2 miles on the treadmill 3-4 days a week, worked on my personal sites and also unwind my complicated mind. By the time we reached our 6th month of living out here, we discovered I was pregnant. Now this was going to make it even harder for me to find a job so I picked up an independent contractor job as a part time marketer to keep my mind stimulated while being pregnant. I also took a real estate class and found a broker. Then I gave birth!

Boy, has that changed my world. How can I possibly want to be able to breastfeed my child for a year, be a real estate agent and show houses? Impossible. Daycare was out of the question. We agreed that it's worth having me stay at home than pay hundreds of dollars every week for someone who will not be able to provide the ultimate care to our child like a parent would. I was hoping I could bring my newborn while I work but it will not be ideal. The baby can cry and be fussy at any time!

Anyway, now I am a stay at home mother and I love it. I am also breastfeeding and that makes me feel so great to be able to provide food to my newborn. "Breast is better" is what I learned while I was pregnant. It's organic, has antibodies and is made specifically for my child because he came from my body. Formula does not have any of that. It was formulated to try to be like breast milk. A lot of companies market it to push parents thinking it was better decades ago and the truth is, anything that is scientifically engineered is never better than the real natural deal. Not to mention that it decreases the chance of my child getting allergies. I was a formula-fed baby and I have allergies off the ying-yang. I don't blame my mother. She didn't know that formula was not better than her breast milk so she did not consider giving me her breast milk. 

Now every once in a while like maybe twice a week, I'll have a free hour if I'm done with laundry, dishes and other chores while my baby is sleeping. My mind wanders and I think "can I go back to school" or "pick up a side job"? I really like making money. I've been working since I was 10. I would help my mom out at her salon as a kid and then at 17, I helped managed it. Then at 18, I worked for the mall and 19 - 22, for restaurants and then for a marketing company from 23 - 28. I like being employed so not being employed consistently I guess is like a little void that wants to be filled. I just learn to get used to it. Being a stay at home mom who is breastfeeding requires me to be by my child so he is taken care of, comforted and fed at any given moment when needed. That gives me great purpose but what if I could earn money while caring for my child? I guess that is why there are so many advertisements for "work from home" jobs that are trying to get the attention of stay at home moms. All of them I've seen are scams. Why are people so mean? Taking advantage of SAHM (stay at home mothers) and playing around with their desires?